Moving at 6 months pregnant with a little one year old can be exhausting and I seemed to have forgotten that until it all hit me at the beginning of this week! I was originally intending on writing a little blurb about our move (which I will still do sometime in the next week) this past Monday morning but to be honest I was feeling rather worn out and wasn’t sure how well my brain would recollect all the details of the past couple weeks in any type of cohesive way for you all to read about!
So, here instead is the wonderful result of what came out of my tiredness this Monday morning. Once Emma was down for her morning nap, I got in my cozy sweater, got myself a hot cup of coffee, my Bible and journal and headed out to our new balcony to enjoy the fresh fall air and some vital quiet time with God.
Now, I was feeling a tad bit blah simply because of my tiredness, my belly getting bigger and therefore my back starting to hurt a little more, my not being able to just get things moved and hung as easily because I need to be sure I am being smart with how much I do or don’t do for baby Ella’s sake, my parents are overseas right now for about a month and I was really missing my mom’s help as I got stuff moved into our new place, and then as soon as my nice quiet time was about to start….I heard little noises come trailing from Emma’s room, apparently this was one of those “no napping” mornings for her.
However, they were still just happy chatty noises from her room so I decided to proceed with my quiet time for a least a few more minutes…and I am so glad I did.
I happened to be reading in Proverbs chapter 30 on this particular morning and the very first few verses start out with the writer discussing just how worn out he is. Then in the following verses God reminds the writer how He’s got it all taken care of. It was perfect timing and I immediately had an attitude change from blah to brimming with joy and gratefulness. I was so quickly reminded in those first few verses I read that God is my refuge and I can completely rest and relax in Him. He is my God and He is in control…why did I let all the tiredness affect me in an ungrateful way this morning, that was just silly.
In the quick ten minutes I got before going to get little Emma up from her “non-nap” my whole mindset changed. All those things that were making me throw a tiny pity party in the morning were suddenly huge reasons I saw to be thankful for in my life:
The fact that I was tired and my belly was growing (back aches and all) was a good thing it meant little Ella is growing healthy and strong, I’ve got a little miracle growing inside of me and any ounce of pain or tiredness is so worth it in comparison to the huge gift that little Ella is to our family! I am blessed to be pregnant and I love feeling her little kicks and movements inside my belly!
As far as not getting things moved as quickly or easily because of being pregnant..so what?? I decided…really things have moved quite smoothly and quickly in getting things settled, I have an amazing hubby who never complains when I ask him to move something or hang yet another shelf for me, and we have this great new place that has immediately felt like home to our family, God once again exceeded our expectations with this new place we have.
My parents being gone. Hello!….I am soooo grateful for parents who love God and serve God so willingly in all that they do and how cool is it that they have the opportunity to be serving Him overseas for a month right now? They are reaching and encouraging so many different people in different countries. My parents are an enormous blessing to me and our whole family and we are privileged that others get to share in the blessing of our parents in the different countries they will be visiting, serving in and speaking in over this next month!
And then our little Emma making noises in her crib, not wanting to take a nap as soon as I sit down….oh the little tears come to my eyes when I realize what a blessing it is to have a little healthy girl making joyful little noises in her crib, just waiting for me, her mommy, to come get her. There are no words. I get to be home with my little girl daily, I get to be the one playing with her, reading to her, walking with her, talking with her, singing to her, rocking her to sleep, etc. etc. daily…once again what a gift.
So you see why I realized I was being so silly??? I have been incredibly blessed and I am so grateful to God. No need to be superwoman getting it all moved in, perfectly organized, and settled in under two weeks when I have an amazing hubby, an adorable happy little girl, and yet another adorable little girl growing nice and healthy in my belly!
And this is why I decided the blurb about our move will have to wait till later this week…because as I cuddled in my cozy sweater and drank from my warm coffee cup, I realized just how content I need to be with the bountiful blessings God has poured into my life. I am one grateful woman just resting in His joy…no matter how long it takes to get things fully organized in our new place. :)